Far away, beyond sapiens imagination pills
There is a place, where time is still.
So constant, isolated and peaceful
This bad little habit of mine
Possessed me since I was nine
For months I suffered from the thirst
Then finally I committed a crime
No it was not the murder or homicide of some kind
Just a bad habit of lying by telling the truth … No I didn’t have much time
Oh this tricky habit of mine
Always kicks me out from my life
For decades I suffered from the pain
Then I finally forced my self to decide no I did not punished my self and cry
Just a bad habit of keeping secrets all the time
What’s wrong with the hidden truth?
I thought it was quite an art ….
My trophies of lies and secret …
A camouflage of my confusion and heart…
How pathetic are you?
Don’t you have any dirty little secrets?
Tell me where do you hide??
Well this awe , pitiful habit of mine
Deep down I know how they shine ..
All those encounter with real me
Makes me believe, that was a mistake of mine …
Oh dearest habit of mine ….
Won’t you let me go … I think its time.
Leave me with my mess its mine..
Before I commit so heneous crime
Because when I stop following you …. I’ll know i’ll sleep in time …
Dear moody habit of mine you fluctuates temperature of my mind
Late night lying numb on my bed
And the feeling rushing through my veins
The echoes of darkness ringing in my head
Going through each and every dimensions of my life
The broken vows and mistakes that I made
Deliver me from this place
My heart says
Guilty as charged
All the melodies of past pouring like the rain
Memories at stake like a blade at the edge of a blade
Everything seems like a dream no sign of heart pumping and lungs breathing
I simply ignore and avoid the life of mine
Which accidentally can’t be fine
What is happiness now I fell ,I think I am not even sure
Nothing is sophisticated yet
Even though enough was never satisfying before
”5 years of pain
15 years of suffering
20 year old privilege
And you think you know something about hatred ?? ”
I can‘t let you live your life in awaiting forgiveness
Cause my vengeance is so loud
Even if you try to confess the sins that shines through your skin
I will still watch you fall to the ground
I will hear the words that comes out of your throat
And I will pretend that I feel you somehow
And laugh with the agony inside of my heart
slow and barbaric death of yours would satisfy me
Forgive you ?? Nah it would only purify me
Even if you are forgiven by lord
Your death would remind him of the mistake that he did before
And never let his pride pushed through his faith again
The things you did to me left the scar on my soul
The cursed disease that you spread inside me
Became my cure
And iam now dancing in darkness
Raising a tost to your defeat
Won’t you forgive me
Consider it done , I want to hear it from you
See through my eyes the life of BETRAYAL
Don’t you pity me ?
Now I had raised the sails…
Straight to horizon to the garden of dream
And I can still hear you scream
Save your strength , the struggle is worthless
When the vengeance is too loud
The heartbeats fades away slowly
So let go of your pride
Turn the page it’s the end of the story ……
The hell awaits
Now I walk … Walk into the wild…
Leaving every mistakes of past behind….I now feel alive …
Here I am walking with hope …
Believing everything will turn to gold.
How I can be the same when every single little happiness ruins my faith.
Now i’ll be there with no plans. ..
It’s true I did nothing when I had a chance …
So I walk …Walk Into the wild …
I know it will change sooner or later
I sink while my demons swims.
The emptiness inside my head no one tries to dwell …
I believe ocean cries at night. .
So they walk with me tonight.
Fearless I am trying to be
Brave I was ….
All those laughter that I shared
And the prayers that I prayed ….
I felt something needs to change …
So here I am trying to change
Tired enough …..
Can’t fight this feeling anymore ..
I see nature by my side …
So I walk …Walk into the wild….
I heard rumours …. Earth is dying…
We are killing her …
So I stopped once and looked back …
I was a killer too
I tried to confess …. Nature did violence too …
So we are even …
Now she will walk with me soon …
In the amusement of my fantasy world ….
The roar of the lions and birds ….
May be there is no light at the end of tunnel ….
And leap of hopes keep dying
But now I walk ….And there’s a silver lining …..
So again walking into the wild ..
Oh! What a beautiful sight
Darkness covers his territory
And lights began to hide
Then portrait of the moon
come fading all the stars
The wind start to move
And armies began to march
He start to curse every angel who has fallen down
And crucifix every men who fits in his crown
Beyond all the stories , theres truth that we seek
No the faith and hope, they just makes you weak
Then I heard a loud growling or it was my mind making sound
And in that tearful silence i fainted unto the ground
Keep thy kingdom , its a never ending nightmare
And cast me out already for that Iam aware
The glory of the virtue , is the poison that we breathe
The weight of your own soul is a the victim of a myth
dark nemesis, thoughts are bulky as the earth
But I’ll come around in circle for that Iam made of dirt
The pain keeps passing through the hole of my nerve
Dark nemesis, keeps me going
And it hurts me when Iam loved …
My eyes are colliding
Feets are shaking
Heart is exploding
I am going numb by the sound that they are making
I am just a voice inside my head
I dare to leave this place
It’s so disgusting in here
But I am getting used to this mess
I cover my self under Azure sky
I am no sinner but I am punished , I did no crime
Iam tormented ,wished someone would witness me
So they could see
My fears , through my tears
That I shed
I am nothing but a shadow inside this large empty room
I won’t be long for soon
As I see the bleeding moon
After the afternoon
I feel nothing but my exit wound
I hide when the truths starts to lie,It makes me paralysed
Still I don’t want to die
But being friendly I drowned with this violence
And finally committed suicide in this silence …
Her face in my mind
A recurring dream of some kind
Yet I ended up kissing her cold mirror
That holds the beauty inside
The ugliest parts of her turns out to form a horrific image
How I drowned in her fragments of fantasy
The only thing I regret
Her fountain of lolicon mountain
to the edge I walked
The turning graves under the ground
As I walk into that filth of haze
Nearly visible of everything they own
She crawled like a child towards me
Took me somewhere so none can follow
Then in the blaze of fire I stand
And prayed within that maze of hollow
The mistake I did was to look in her eyes again
As she was the queen of snow her body just covered in her skin that she lives in
Awful scenario of her naked truth of lies
When she began to seduce me by playing her erected nipples and body parts
The only thing I was into was her constant lart
When she summoned her dying prophet
His prophetic words started to run through me
And throughout the exorcism of my baleful dilemma
I was rescued by her distracting plagues
She began to crawl in my neck
With the little scratches I bleed
She kissed my melting skin
And pressed my knolb of bones
As she began to skin me alive
And fuck me with her faith of
My whole body was begging with mourns
And shall I let you go she said Under the bleeding moon
She tattooed her love with flames in my chest
And I found myself laying naked in my deathbed
I never happend to notice the time that I spend in her dreams of mine
The sorrow that I felt was gone
She still purifies me in the wasteful night in my messy mind
In the process of getting rid of you ..
I was done hiding you in my poetry
But my dreams accidentally exposed your cruelty
I was abandoned by my thoughts
Though I was curious towards your sanity
Well there’s something left inside of me , may be a little humanity
iam just a silent observer
and Iam done being victim of insanity
Well you have no idea how sophisticated is my tragedy
If you could see behind these eyes , you would call me your majesty
I wonder in my dreams,How to get rid of your face ,Well I must say I hadn’t forgotten you completely
It must be a mistake , it would be , if I just don’t feel
Well I am just flesh and bones and this wound takes time to heal
Regardless of my effort
I couldn’t do it alone, would you help me to cure from this disease
There’s no light left and iam getting used to this dark
Let me ask you , that killing You would satisfy me,
Is it too much to ask?
Away from the sky
Beyond those tearful eyes
I feel for myself
In your burning disguise
Like a forest with echoes around
You came crawling under the ground …..
In the rain , in the emptiness and silence
The sound that they makes
Like a betrayed violence
-“the devil is you” –
In the broken old piano she keeps weeping
Through my thoughts I Watched her sleeping
With her memories my heart skips beating
-“You did that to her”-
Open your eyes had enough of this loneliness
Let me take you away from this suicidal place
I won’t be for so long..
It’s a mystery where I am from ….
-“I guess she already know”-
Mistakes breaks your hope
No faith can ever make it up to you
-“Stop this betrayal to life”-
When you keep struggling in haze
And realize that there is no escape from this maze
-“observe her tormented soul,like a portrait on the wall”-
The regret of losing her
It’s a mess you’ve already made
Chase as fast as you can
“Indeed you are already late”
Last but not the least just stop turning the page ….
-“finally the sun will melt, die before you kill yourself “-