Her absolute absence

I was never prepared for your absence Whenever you said goodbye , but eventually you came back with your smile ,You went towards the light and I’m buried in this darkness 
I felt blessed then, I feel cursed now

I will remember you for centuries

Now I’m grieving in your memories 

The falsely truth of erroneous presence of silence 

Why should I accept your death

Will I ever see you smiling again?

Why there is the concrete wall between us now 

You can’t reach me and this silence is growing loud 

There is no space for dreams in my head its full of incurable fear  

My Morning begins with misery

My Days come in chaos

The Weekends ends in disaster

And Happiness turns into ruins 

I feel your absence but I feel your presence too , I woke up today saw the empty space beside me , but I still want you to remind me , that you are gone 

Where do I look for you  ? Are you inside of me?

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Something about her

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I never dreamed her mysterious lies 

But she would trick me and hide 

While walking she used to stop and stare 

The look in her eyes I found it rare 

Even I never possessed the power to love her 

Her hypnotic behavior made me give her comfort and care 

I still wonder , I write about her smile and her beautiful scruffy hair 

Nowadays she haunts my dream at night 

No, not the nightmares she plans to give me 

But wants me to be by her side

Well here I plan to miss her tonight 

There’s something I would like to ask her 

“Hey can you read the questions reflecting through my eyes ?”

May be she would answer me instantly 

But I want to hear her words , gently

She didn’t talked much , but it was enough for me to satisfy

I miss her less vulnerable weakness 

So I peel my skin to release the disease 

That keeps growing along with me 

But through the exit wound only the darkness I can see

Well Yesterday’s tragedy becomes regrets of tomorrow 

There’s something left alive in your memories, that I would like to borrow 

Till then let me learn to live with this sorrow

                       -“needed to be loved again “

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Her beauty



Looking at her beautiful long hair 

I remembered fairy tale of rapungel 

Then she smiled hiding her face 

She looked like an angel  in that wonderful dress

And I stared pretending to not care 

But I did not dared to look in her eyes again 

I catch another breath just to gain some courage 

Trying not to fall for her waiting is the key 

And began to wonder in my imagination 

Whatsoever she is thinking putting myself in her dreams 

I rested in peace with her vibe

Never seen such beauty in my entire life 

Want to write her down ,don’t even know how to describe 

I was chased by my perception

Dreaming out loud I was paralysed 

And started to explore my inception

I got lost and came to believe that deception 

Finally she knock in my heart of reception 

Saying are you alright ?

Before I could find a word to speak 

She vanished in thin air ,just out of my sight ..

HER BETRAYAL

Feets shaking 

Eyes are weary 

Ache in my heart 

Visions are blurry

Clock slowly tik ‘n tock

Thoughts are heavy 

All those memories 

I long to miss it again

I hope your satisfied with your dreams 

Mine betrayed me 

Iam lost 

Who would want to be found? Since you became unknown to me 

Iam just a face in the crowd 
Hands are weak 

Lungs are collapsing 

The way you used to run your fingers through my hair 

That time keep passing 

Now Iam the only , so lonely 

They call me 

See Iam crying , but tears they don’t fall 

I look pale , so beautifully insane 

You left without a kiss 

Like a rose in the rain 

And I was gravitated by the gravity 

Like a diamond and the star 

Sky called me “oh darling what a tragedy you are ” ..

As I think about your eyes 

And how your skin made me cry 

I would give every thing

To feel your thin blue jeans

Again 

Holding you close , sinking you in my arms 

Your sweaty smell , that hypnotic charm 

I would give a try to find you in someone else 

Just to clear my filthy head and wasteful love mess 
How You spoiled me with your touch 

Laying awake in the couch 

Your Kiss beneath my neck

A love song of ancient lake

An unholy promise to break a heart 

Which can be seen through  my chest