Sometimes, iam terrified of my heart
By the sound it makes
Leaving a sudden death
Like a mysterious child
With an “awful taste”
Her absolute absence
I was never prepared for your absence Whenever you said goodbye , but eventually you came back with your smile ,You went towards the light and I’m buried in this darkness
I felt blessed then, I feel cursed now
I will remember you for centuries
Now I’m grieving in your memories
The falsely truth of erroneous presence of silence
Why should I accept your death ,
Will I ever see you smiling again?
Why there is the concrete wall between us now
You can’t reach me and this silence is growing loud
There is no space for dreams in my head its full of incurable fear
My Morning begins with misery
My Days come in chaos
The Weekends ends in disaster
And Happiness turns into ruins
I feel your absence but I feel your presence too , I woke up today saw the empty space beside me , but I still want you to remind me , that you are gone
Where do I look for you ? Are you inside of me?
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“Something about her“
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I never dreamed her mysterious lies
But she would trick me and hide
While walking she used to stop and stare
The look in her eyes I found it rare
Even I never possessed the power to love her
Her hypnotic behavior made me give her comfort and care
I still wonder , I write about her smile and her beautiful scruffy hair
Nowadays she haunts my dream at night
No, not the nightmares she plans to give me
But wants me to be by her side
Well here I plan to miss her tonight
There’s something I would like to ask her
“Hey can you read the questions reflecting through my eyes ?”
May be she would answer me instantly
But I want to hear her words , gently
She didn’t talked much , but it was enough for me to satisfy
I miss her less vulnerable weakness
So I peel my skin to release the disease
That keeps growing along with me
But through the exit wound only the darkness I can see
Well Yesterday’s tragedy becomes regrets of tomorrow
There’s something left alive in your memories, that I would like to borrow
Till then let me learn to live with this sorrow
-“needed to be loved again “
THE WARRIOR’s revenge
”5 years of pain
15 years of suffering
20 year old privilege
And you think you know something about hatred ?? ”
I can‘t let you live your life in awaiting forgiveness
Cause my vengeance is so loud
Even if you try to confess the sins that shines through your skin
I will still watch you fall to the ground
I will hear the words that comes out of your throat
And I will pretend that I feel you somehow
And laugh with the agony inside of my heart
slow and barbaric death of yours would satisfy me
Forgive you ?? Nah it would only purify me
Even if you are forgiven by lord
Your death would remind him of the mistake that he did before
And never let his pride pushed through his faith again
The things you did to me left the scar on my soul
The cursed disease that you spread inside me
Became my cure
And iam now dancing in darkness
Raising a tost to your defeat
Won’t you forgive me
Consider it done , I want to hear it from you
See through my eyes the life of BETRAYAL
Don’t you pity me ?
Now I had raised the sails…
Straight to horizon to the garden of dream
And I can still hear you scream
Save your strength , the struggle is worthless
When the vengeance is too loud
The heartbeats fades away slowly
So let go of your pride
Turn the page it’s the end of the story ……
The hell awaits
POETRY OF LUST
I reckoned the wistful eyes of nameless faces
It was like the vivid blue sky
I thought they were from harmless places
I actually thought they could fly
Mysterious world filled with poetry of lust
Nobody likes to face the truth
Tempted by the sweet small fruit
How can we be lost …
We were never really in a right path
So whom shall we call
To begin or end this Start
Twisted lies no matter how hard we try to hide
Time will avenge us indeed it will find
Like the light of a golden sun
Melting like a helpless candle
The weight of the world which gravity cannot hold alone
All the creatures they vanish in thin air
Like a old man resting in the chair
Waiting for death to arrive
Yet we are seeking for someone who could bargain for us or even bribe
A whisper in a cold dark night make us strong giving an advice
It mess with us saying unholy words like a whore in a bed trying to confess to the world
That’s it …it’s just a poetry of lust
Not lost but no one’s ever find
GROTESQUE
They Ailed my heart with hammer and nails
I slept quietly under the abhorinng pain
The extremist desire within me hails and melt
Now slowly I began to escape the torture
Through unholy rituals with priest and chains
And I accepted it as my fate
Like it was my unacceptable culture
When they started to cut me limb from limb
That’s where I went mean
Though I was getting used to it
I accidentally felt my skin
It was warm,cold was I
I realised life is a lie
Then I calmly closed my eyes
Cos I already paid the price
CRAZY DOG
Faces in the forest
ghosts in the fog
she hawls at moon
like a crazy dog
In the dark scary night
She walks in the streets
But in the day time
She lives in my dream
Colours in the painting
Your love and your hug
Let me cry a river
Like a crazy dog
Cold winter
Self created …
In the dark night of winter
A heart frozen with cold
A tale of the darkness barely told
I cut myself to see that I am alive
For that Iam misguided by bile
Loneliness starts to starve within me
Concrete Walls through I can barely see
A gleam of light impaling the mist
Came shaking through the clouds
The the sound of silence that used to bound me
Accidentally grew loud
I saw the bloody moon drowning on it’s own blood
And the shadow of my mind recreated another world
A black winter it was so cold and mourn
A debt that was left to be paid
Exiled me from my grave
Then I realized the tragedy that I suffered
Struggled for my salvation
The event that never occurred
Devoted death of thy beauties
Devoted death of thy beauties
Imagine yourself at the dreamland of demand
Where uh are the creator and got all hands
False night & true morning
Dark sunrise, bright foolin’
The sun rises in the sky
And clouds floats so slowly
Love is part of a bible (I heard)
And a unexplainable theory
Thy beautiful faces lying naked in ground
Surround by rumour
Oh! No thats a crowd
In a longway run very much to get bound
An amorous behavoiur of girls
Presentin amok slightly
The running water of river
Walkin so quitly
The nature somtime rumble upon my dream
Even these beauties are dead still my imagination is clean
I plight to be forever
But my lord isn’t happy
Though I got plenty of time
Still my weight to the world is heavy
The beautiful angels of dene
Are likely to be deadpan
Ofcourse this babel is callouse
My dreams never understand
My heart is capacious
Distracted by bene
Though the bone to the muscle of the mind
are trying to disband my chains
Yes im plucky and naught
Still m mourn
Yeap my times are hard
So I let my body burn
Thy beautiful nature
Thy beautiful trees
Thy painful eyes
My heart beautiful then thee
Main theme is long
Tormented life
Unspoken words of story
My only debut song
Rising towards the glory
Walk into the wild
Now I walk … Walk into the wild…
Leaving every mistakes of past behind….I now feel alive …
Here I am walking with hope …
Believing everything will turn to gold.
How I can be the same when every single little happiness ruins my faith.
Now i’ll be there with no plans. ..
It’s true I did nothing when I had a chance …
So I walk …Walk Into the wild …
I know it will change sooner or later
I sink while my demons swims.
The emptiness inside my head no one tries to dwell …
I believe ocean cries at night. .
So they walk with me tonight.
Fearless I am trying to be
Brave I was ….
All those laughter that I shared
And the prayers that I prayed ….
I felt something needs to change …
So here I am trying to change
Tired enough …..
Can’t fight this feeling anymore ..
I see nature by my side …
So I walk …Walk into the wild….
I heard rumours …. Earth is dying…
We are killing her …
So I stopped once and looked back …
I was a killer too
I tried to confess …. Nature did violence too …
So we are even …
Now she will walk with me soon …
In the amusement of my fantasy world ….
The roar of the lions and birds ….
May be there is no light at the end of tunnel ….
And leap of hopes keep dying
But now I walk ….And there’s a silver lining …..
So again walking into the wild ..
Nemesis
Look up into the night sky
Oh! What a beautiful sight
Darkness covers his territory
And lights began to hide
Then portrait of the moon
come fading all the stars
The wind start to move
And armies began to march
He start to curse every angel who has fallen down
And crucifix every men who fits in his crown
Beyond all the stories , theres truth that we seek
No the faith and hope, they just makes you weak
Then I heard a loud growling or it was my mind making sound
And in that tearful silence i fainted unto the ground
Keep thy kingdom , its a never ending nightmare
And cast me out already for that Iam aware
The glory of the virtue , is the poison that we breathe
The weight of your own soul is a the victim of a myth
dark nemesis, thoughts are bulky as the earth
But I’ll come around in circle for that Iam made of dirt
The pain keeps passing through the hole of my nerve
Dark nemesis, keeps me going
And it hurts me when Iam loved …
