unholy encounter

Her eyes silenced my demons in very first sight .

An unholy encounter of darkness and light 

The look in her eyes, those insolence charm hidden behind her innocent face 

Made me realize ,that we both 

Got stupid dreams

Dreams that can be injurious inside 

And my thoughts started to fight 

How I stared at your face 

Hallucinating within, my mind 

She politely asked me to move aside 

Oh ! Those words of wisdom 

She became the guide to my life 

My weary arms were so eager to grab her tight 

But yet I stayed in dark cause I was scared of the light

She smiled looking at me..

Playing with my mind ..

She accidentally committed a crime 

But how she can be blamed ..

My demons already crossed the line 

Then she ignored me just a little 

Why in world this has to happen 

I felt I was born to live brittle 

So brittle that her charm could break me and my heart ❤

And then she touched , oh ! The way she touched 

I quietly felt my sorrows fading away far away from me … As I watched .

She said you don’t deserve this way 

Again she played with my mind 

Though this truth was bitter, it was already a gloomy day 

So thick and dense forest it was 

And the words runs so deep in my veins 

Now it rained it rained so hard 

She unintentionally disbanded my chains 

Then she grabbed me so gently 

Yet it generated numerous amount of pain 

How can I stay calm her love already drove me Insane 

Those line on her face the way they resembles her story 

As I tried to read her eyes, my heard started worry 

She ran her fingers through my hair 

She played with them for a while 

Then she grabbed it so tight 

And exposed me to her light 

I seek for a place to hide, but the time betrayed me …

I exploded into her eyes …

How I cried , how she wiped those tears 

No disguise could be so pure 

Where was she hiding all those years 

I asked my self to defend my soul .

A dangerous mistake was done

It was not there and she had already be gone ….

Inside my grave, darkness so deep 

I was awake but she  offered me eternal sleep

How she lied , how I died ….

Here lies the victim, there goes the criminal committing another crime …

 

​Polluted  poetry(ambiguous farewell)


Stayed awake till the morning 

Just to see her one more time

Faded away in her thoughts

My mind committed suicide 

Sad story behind this silence 

How I Waited to love her eternally 

And How my patience was ignored.

Still can’t believe it’s true 

And it started to spread like venom and flu 

Then my poem got polluted 

Yet , no clue 
Her smell on my mind 

The Hypnotism of her lies 

Been consumed by her charm

My soul locked inside her eyes 

Oh! End come soon and set me free 

Polluted poetry and a tearful plea 

How the heart can hurt 

Your love mixed in my blood

And this silence growing with agony 

Even the moon became my enemy 

And the sky started to cry 

Rain passes by 

Pouring my polluted poetry

Giving an ambiguous goodbye 

My life so unnatural

Leaving me with my memories

That’s how my demons betrayed me

Emptiness surrounds me 

I am the victim of your crime 

Sin after sin you committed 

I was the slave to your smile 

How the smoke gathered up above in the horizon 

Vanishing from earthly pleasures

An artistic view in pain 

My words your game 

My POETRY in chains 

Release me enslave me 

Oh! end come and set me free 

Polluted poetry and tearful plea 

She can’t be Described

Truth in her lies

Pain in her eyes

My conscious faded

There is no place to hide

She came like “June “

Drew poetry from my lips

My heart melted

Unpredicted was the kiss

Roses she loved

With thrones she was covered

My memories burning

A “reality discovered”

In darkness she lived

Those lines on her face

My words unspoken

It’s hard to clean up the mess

Unforgiven and suffered

Her body kept turning in grave

My dreams betrayed me

Hallowed be thy name

Save

Cold winter

:) it looks nice

Self created …


In the dark night of winter 
A heart frozen with cold 

A tale of the darkness barely told 

I cut myself to see that I am alive 

For that Iam misguided by bile 

Loneliness starts to starve within me 

Concrete Walls through I can barely see 

A gleam of light impaling the mist

Came shaking through the clouds

The the sound of silence that used to bound me 

Accidentally grew loud 

 
I saw the bloody moon drowning on it’s own blood 

And the shadow of my mind recreated another world 

A black winter it was so cold and mourn 

A debt that was left to be paid 

Exiled me from my grave 

Then I realized the tragedy that I suffered 

Struggled for my salvation 

The event that never occurred 

Witness me 

In the nights of September 

When I walked through my corridor 

All I can see is the lies 

Crawling through the floor 

I have so much pain in my chest 

All regrets and mistakes 

It’s burning me 

And I am sure 
Truth to be told 

I’ll be here no more 

Got nothing left , but emptiness 

Don’t even have soul , cause I already sold it before 
In the cold dark night , 

When darkness haunts my thoughts 

I seek for a place to hide 

With all the energy I’ve  got 

I have something to show you 

But don’t think I can

Hope you would forgive me 

And understand
When I hear cries at the night and demons in their lies 

Summon me to their feast 

Feed me with my greed 

I wander in my head 

Is there someone to witness me ?

 

​THE EXORCISM THERAPY

 

Her face in my mind 

A recurring dream of some kind 

Yet I ended up kissing her cold mirror

That holds the beauty inside 

The ugliest parts of her turns out to form a horrific image 

How I drowned in her fragments of fantasy 

The only thing I regret 

Her fountain of lolicon mountain 

to the edge I walked 

The turning graves under the ground 

As I walk into that filth of haze 

Nearly visible of everything they own 

She crawled like a child towards me 

Took me somewhere so none can follow 

Then in the blaze of fire I stand 

And prayed within that maze of hollow 

The mistake I did was to look in her eyes again 

As she was the queen of snow her body just covered in her skin that she lives in 

Awful scenario of her naked truth of lies 

When she began to seduce me by playing her erected nipples and body parts

The only thing I was into was her constant lart 

When she summoned her dying prophet 

His prophetic words started to run through me 

And throughout the exorcism of my baleful dilemma 

I was rescued by her distracting plagues 
She began to crawl in my neck 

With the little scratches I bleed

She kissed my melting skin

And pressed my knolb of bones 

As she began to skin me alive 

And fuck me with her faith of 

Stones 

My whole body was begging with mourns 

And shall I let you go she said Under the bleeding moon 

She tattooed her love with flames in my chest 

And I found myself laying naked in my deathbed 

I never happend to notice the time that I spend in her dreams of mine 

The sorrow that I felt was gone 

She still purifies me in the wasteful night in my messy mind