Graveyard of lonely sins

Irrational operations of my heart 

Ongoing investigation in my mind 

I am already lost in this filthy world 

Gathering time to find my kind 

Foreign pain came to haunt me down

In the midst of the graveyard I was found 

I laid my body so, I could dream of you 

My patience falling apart, I don’t hear your sound 

I tired so hard to escape this twisted feel 

But darkness sure have some amazing skills 

I broke down but,  still I avoid 

I am just not welcome in this empty void 

Yet, I look for your sparkling eyes, 

So, I could hide 

But you left me with no choice 

How I ignored the wisdom advice 

Now, I wish for a bright blue sky

But I was eternally burned how I’m I supposed to fly …
These painted sins over the walls 

Now they are calling me to witness my fall 

Who is that exists with me ? 

I am caving in , these walls are growing tall 

Like a Angel who don’t wear their wings 

And the whispers that makes me swing 

But now I am praying for one more chance 

Just to catch you with another glance how well I learned to starve my sins

Visions blurry yet, my imagination is clean …

I am so deeply lost within… 

How beautiful the dark can be ??

Waited enough to see through it …

But there is nothing wrong with me 

You touched me, I am cursed … 

Not a soul to witness me ..

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unholy encounter

Her eyes silenced my demons in very first sight .

An unholy encounter of darkness and light 

The look in her eyes, those insolence charm hidden behind her innocent face 

Made me realize ,that we both 

Got stupid dreams

Dreams that can be injurious inside 

And my thoughts started to fight 

How I stared at your face 

Hallucinating within, my mind 

She politely asked me to move aside 

Oh ! Those words of wisdom 

She became the guide to my life 

My weary arms were so eager to grab her tight 

But yet I stayed in dark cause I was scared of the light

She smiled looking at me..

Playing with my mind ..

She accidentally committed a crime 

But how she can be blamed ..

My demons already crossed the line 

Then she ignored me just a little 

Why in world this has to happen 

I felt I was born to live brittle 

So brittle that her charm could break me and my heart ❤

And then she touched , oh ! The way she touched 

I quietly felt my sorrows fading away far away from me … As I watched .

She said you don’t deserve this way 

Again she played with my mind 

Though this truth was bitter, it was already a gloomy day 

So thick and dense forest it was 

And the words runs so deep in my veins 

Now it rained it rained so hard 

She unintentionally disbanded my chains 

Then she grabbed me so gently 

Yet it generated numerous amount of pain 

How can I stay calm her love already drove me Insane 

Those line on her face the way they resembles her story 

As I tried to read her eyes, my heard started worry 

She ran her fingers through my hair 

She played with them for a while 

Then she grabbed it so tight 

And exposed me to her light 

I seek for a place to hide, but the time betrayed me …

I exploded into her eyes …

How I cried , how she wiped those tears 

No disguise could be so pure 

Where was she hiding all those years 

I asked my self to defend my soul .

A dangerous mistake was done

It was not there and she had already be gone ….

Inside my grave, darkness so deep 

I was awake but she  offered me eternal sleep

How she lied , how I died ….

Here lies the victim, there goes the criminal committing another crime …

 

​Polluted  poetry(ambiguous farewell)


Stayed awake till the morning 

Just to see her one more time

Faded away in her thoughts

My mind committed suicide 

Sad story behind this silence 

How I Waited to love her eternally 

And How my patience was ignored.

Still can’t believe it’s true 

And it started to spread like venom and flu 

Then my poem got polluted 

Yet , no clue 
Her smell on my mind 

The Hypnotism of her lies 

Been consumed by her charm

My soul locked inside her eyes 

Oh! End come soon and set me free 

Polluted poetry and a tearful plea 

How the heart can hurt 

Your love mixed in my blood

And this silence growing with agony 

Even the moon became my enemy 

And the sky started to cry 

Rain passes by 

Pouring my polluted poetry

Giving an ambiguous goodbye 

My life so unnatural

Leaving me with my memories

That’s how my demons betrayed me

Emptiness surrounds me 

I am the victim of your crime 

Sin after sin you committed 

I was the slave to your smile 

How the smoke gathered up above in the horizon 

Vanishing from earthly pleasures

An artistic view in pain 

My words your game 

My POETRY in chains 

Release me enslave me 

Oh! end come and set me free 

Polluted poetry and tearful plea 

She can’t be Described

Truth in her lies

Pain in her eyes

My conscious faded

There is no place to hide

She came like “June “

Drew poetry from my lips

My heart melted

Unpredicted was the kiss

Roses she loved

With thrones she was covered

My memories burning

A “reality discovered”

In darkness she lived

Those lines on her face

My words unspoken

It’s hard to clean up the mess

Unforgiven and suffered

Her body kept turning in grave

My dreams betrayed me

Hallowed be thy name

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WORST CASE SCENARIO 


I wish I was your worst nightmare ,So you could actually remember to avoid 
I wish you were my fascinating dream ,Which can easily fill the void 

I wish I was your eco in large empty room, So you must hear me without seeking second choice 

I wish you were my words ,In which I can totally rejoice 

I wish I was your unplanned trip ,So you could accidentally come and visit 

I wish you were my favorite spot ,Which I can hardly resist 

I wish I was your hypothetical thought, Which has no proof of its existence 

I wish you were my theory of everything So I could be at your assistance

Her absolute absence

I was never prepared for your absence Whenever you said goodbye , but eventually you came back with your smile ,You went towards the light and I’m buried in this darkness 
I felt blessed then, I feel cursed now

I will remember you for centuries

Now I’m grieving in your memories 

The falsely truth of erroneous presence of silence 

Why should I accept your death

Will I ever see you smiling again?

Why there is the concrete wall between us now 

You can’t reach me and this silence is growing loud 

There is no space for dreams in my head its full of incurable fear  

My Morning begins with misery

My Days come in chaos

The Weekends ends in disaster

And Happiness turns into ruins 

I feel your absence but I feel your presence too , I woke up today saw the empty space beside me , but I still want you to remind me , that you are gone 

Where do I look for you  ? Are you inside of me?

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Something about her

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I never dreamed her mysterious lies 

But she would trick me and hide 

While walking she used to stop and stare 

The look in her eyes I found it rare 

Even I never possessed the power to love her 

Her hypnotic behavior made me give her comfort and care 

I still wonder , I write about her smile and her beautiful scruffy hair 

Nowadays she haunts my dream at night 

No, not the nightmares she plans to give me 

But wants me to be by her side

Well here I plan to miss her tonight 

There’s something I would like to ask her 

“Hey can you read the questions reflecting through my eyes ?”

May be she would answer me instantly 

But I want to hear her words , gently

She didn’t talked much , but it was enough for me to satisfy

I miss her less vulnerable weakness 

So I peel my skin to release the disease 

That keeps growing along with me 

But through the exit wound only the darkness I can see

Well Yesterday’s tragedy becomes regrets of tomorrow 

There’s something left alive in your memories, that I would like to borrow 

Till then let me learn to live with this sorrow

                       -“needed to be loved again “

POETRY OF LUST


I reckoned the wistful eyes of nameless faces 

It was like the vivid blue sky 

I thought they were from harmless places

I actually thought they could fly 
Mysterious world filled with poetry of lust

Nobody likes to face the truth

Tempted by the sweet small fruit 

How can we be lost …

We were never really in a right path 

So whom shall we call 

To begin or end this Start
Twisted lies no matter how hard we try to hide 

Time will avenge us indeed it will find 

Like the light of a golden sun 

Melting like a helpless candle 

The weight of the world which gravity cannot hold alone 

All the creatures they vanish in thin air 

Like a old man resting in the chair

Waiting for death to arrive 

Yet we are seeking for someone who could bargain for us or even bribe 
A whisper in a cold dark night make us strong giving an advice

It mess with us saying unholy words like a whore in a bed trying to confess to the world 
That’s it  …it’s just a poetry of lust 

Not lost but no one’s ever find 

GROTESQUE

They Ailed my heart with hammer and nails
I slept quietly under the abhorinng pain

The extremist desire within me hails and melt

Now slowly I began to escape the torture 

Through unholy rituals with priest and chains

And I accepted it as my fate

Like it was my unacceptable culture 

When they started to cut me limb from limb 

That’s where I went mean 

Though I was getting used to it 

I accidentally felt my skin

It was warm,cold was I 

I realised life is a lie 

Then I calmly closed my eyes 

Cos I already paid the price

Devoted death of thy beauties

Devoted death of thy beauties 


Imagine yourself at the dreamland of demand

Where uh are the creator and got all hands 

False night & true morning 

Dark sunrise, bright foolin’

The sun rises in the sky
And clouds floats so slowly

Love is part of a bible (I heard)

And a unexplainable theory
Thy beautiful faces lying naked in ground

Surround by rumour

Oh! No thats a crowd 

In a longway run very much to get bound
An amorous behavoiur of girls

Presentin amok slightly

The running water of river 

Walkin so quitly 
The nature somtime rumble upon my dream

Even these beauties are dead  still my imagination is clean 

I plight to be forever

But my lord isn’t happy 

Though I got plenty of time 

Still my weight to the world is heavy 
The beautiful angels of dene

Are likely to be deadpan

Ofcourse this babel is callouse 

My dreams never understand 
My heart is capacious 

Distracted by bene 

Though the bone to the muscle of the mind 

are trying to disband my chains
Yes im plucky and naught

Still m mourn 

Yeap my times are hard 

So I let my body burn

 

Thy beautiful  nature 

Thy beautiful trees 

Thy painful eyes 

My heart beautiful then thee
Main theme is long

Tormented life 

Unspoken words of story 

My only debut song 

Rising towards the glory

Her beauty



Looking at her beautiful long hair 

I remembered fairy tale of rapungel 

Then she smiled hiding her face 

She looked like an angel  in that wonderful dress

And I stared pretending to not care 

But I did not dared to look in her eyes again 

I catch another breath just to gain some courage 

Trying not to fall for her waiting is the key 

And began to wonder in my imagination 

Whatsoever she is thinking putting myself in her dreams 

I rested in peace with her vibe

Never seen such beauty in my entire life 

Want to write her down ,don’t even know how to describe 

I was chased by my perception

Dreaming out loud I was paralysed 

And started to explore my inception

I got lost and came to believe that deception 

Finally she knock in my heart of reception 

Saying are you alright ?

Before I could find a word to speak 

She vanished in thin air ,just out of my sight ..