Graveyard of lonely sins

Irrational operations of my heart 

Ongoing investigation in my mind 

I am already lost in this filthy world 

Gathering time to find my kind 

Foreign pain came to haunt me down

In the midst of the graveyard I was found 

I laid my body so, I could dream of you 

My patience falling apart, I don’t hear your sound 

I tired so hard to escape this twisted feel 

But darkness sure have some amazing skills 

I broke down but,  still I avoid 

I am just not welcome in this empty void 

Yet, I look for your sparkling eyes, 

So, I could hide 

But you left me with no choice 

How I ignored the wisdom advice 

Now, I wish for a bright blue sky

But I was eternally burned how I’m I supposed to fly …
These painted sins over the walls 

Now they are calling me to witness my fall 

Who is that exists with me ? 

I am caving in , these walls are growing tall 

Like a Angel who don’t wear their wings 

And the whispers that makes me swing 

But now I am praying for one more chance 

Just to catch you with another glance how well I learned to starve my sins

Visions blurry yet, my imagination is clean …

I am so deeply lost within… 

How beautiful the dark can be ??

Waited enough to see through it …

But there is nothing wrong with me 

You touched me, I am cursed … 

Not a soul to witness me ..

​Polluted  poetry(ambiguous farewell)


Stayed awake till the morning 

Just to see her one more time

Faded away in her thoughts

My mind committed suicide 

Sad story behind this silence 

How I Waited to love her eternally 

And How my patience was ignored.

Still can’t believe it’s true 

And it started to spread like venom and flu 

Then my poem got polluted 

Yet , no clue 
Her smell on my mind 

The Hypnotism of her lies 

Been consumed by her charm

My soul locked inside her eyes 

Oh! End come soon and set me free 

Polluted poetry and a tearful plea 

How the heart can hurt 

Your love mixed in my blood

And this silence growing with agony 

Even the moon became my enemy 

And the sky started to cry 

Rain passes by 

Pouring my polluted poetry

Giving an ambiguous goodbye 

My life so unnatural

Leaving me with my memories

That’s how my demons betrayed me

Emptiness surrounds me 

I am the victim of your crime 

Sin after sin you committed 

I was the slave to your smile 

How the smoke gathered up above in the horizon 

Vanishing from earthly pleasures

An artistic view in pain 

My words your game 

My POETRY in chains 

Release me enslave me 

Oh! end come and set me free 

Polluted poetry and tearful plea 

She can’t be Described

Truth in her lies

Pain in her eyes

My conscious faded

There is no place to hide

She came like “June “

Drew poetry from my lips

My heart melted

Unpredicted was the kiss

Roses she loved

With thrones she was covered

My memories burning

A “reality discovered”

In darkness she lived

Those lines on her face

My words unspoken

It’s hard to clean up the mess

Unforgiven and suffered

Her body kept turning in grave

My dreams betrayed me

Hallowed be thy name

Save

Melodic chaos 

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I reckoned the same feeling today 
It was just a flash back 

Now I feel I’m complete 

But I know what I lack 

Waited to witness miracle

Like progression of chords 

The melodic chaos in distance 

Where the poet seeks the word 

Then the rythem of heartbeat 

Grew so loud 

All those stories of struggle 

Became the face in the crowd 

Her absolute absence

I was never prepared for your absence Whenever you said goodbye , but eventually you came back with your smile ,You went towards the light and I’m buried in this darkness 
I felt blessed then, I feel cursed now

I will remember you for centuries

Now I’m grieving in your memories 

The falsely truth of erroneous presence of silence 

Why should I accept your death

Will I ever see you smiling again?

Why there is the concrete wall between us now 

You can’t reach me and this silence is growing loud 

There is no space for dreams in my head its full of incurable fear  

My Morning begins with misery

My Days come in chaos

The Weekends ends in disaster

And Happiness turns into ruins 

I feel your absence but I feel your presence too , I woke up today saw the empty space beside me , but I still want you to remind me , that you are gone 

Where do I look for you  ? Are you inside of me?

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Something about her

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I never dreamed her mysterious lies 

But she would trick me and hide 

While walking she used to stop and stare 

The look in her eyes I found it rare 

Even I never possessed the power to love her 

Her hypnotic behavior made me give her comfort and care 

I still wonder , I write about her smile and her beautiful scruffy hair 

Nowadays she haunts my dream at night 

No, not the nightmares she plans to give me 

But wants me to be by her side

Well here I plan to miss her tonight 

There’s something I would like to ask her 

“Hey can you read the questions reflecting through my eyes ?”

May be she would answer me instantly 

But I want to hear her words , gently

She didn’t talked much , but it was enough for me to satisfy

I miss her less vulnerable weakness 

So I peel my skin to release the disease 

That keeps growing along with me 

But through the exit wound only the darkness I can see

Well Yesterday’s tragedy becomes regrets of tomorrow 

There’s something left alive in your memories, that I would like to borrow 

Till then let me learn to live with this sorrow

                       -“needed to be loved again “

POETRY OF LUST


I reckoned the wistful eyes of nameless faces 

It was like the vivid blue sky 

I thought they were from harmless places

I actually thought they could fly 
Mysterious world filled with poetry of lust

Nobody likes to face the truth

Tempted by the sweet small fruit 

How can we be lost …

We were never really in a right path 

So whom shall we call 

To begin or end this Start
Twisted lies no matter how hard we try to hide 

Time will avenge us indeed it will find 

Like the light of a golden sun 

Melting like a helpless candle 

The weight of the world which gravity cannot hold alone 

All the creatures they vanish in thin air 

Like a old man resting in the chair

Waiting for death to arrive 

Yet we are seeking for someone who could bargain for us or even bribe 
A whisper in a cold dark night make us strong giving an advice

It mess with us saying unholy words like a whore in a bed trying to confess to the world 
That’s it  …it’s just a poetry of lust 

Not lost but no one’s ever find 

GROTESQUE

They Ailed my heart with hammer and nails
I slept quietly under the abhorinng pain

The extremist desire within me hails and melt

Now slowly I began to escape the torture 

Through unholy rituals with priest and chains

And I accepted it as my fate

Like it was my unacceptable culture 

When they started to cut me limb from limb 

That’s where I went mean 

Though I was getting used to it 

I accidentally felt my skin

It was warm,cold was I 

I realised life is a lie 

Then I calmly closed my eyes 

Cos I already paid the price

Devoted death of thy beauties

Devoted death of thy beauties 


Imagine yourself at the dreamland of demand

Where uh are the creator and got all hands 

False night & true morning 

Dark sunrise, bright foolin’

The sun rises in the sky
And clouds floats so slowly

Love is part of a bible (I heard)

And a unexplainable theory
Thy beautiful faces lying naked in ground

Surround by rumour

Oh! No thats a crowd 

In a longway run very much to get bound
An amorous behavoiur of girls

Presentin amok slightly

The running water of river 

Walkin so quitly 
The nature somtime rumble upon my dream

Even these beauties are dead  still my imagination is clean 

I plight to be forever

But my lord isn’t happy 

Though I got plenty of time 

Still my weight to the world is heavy 
The beautiful angels of dene

Are likely to be deadpan

Ofcourse this babel is callouse 

My dreams never understand 
My heart is capacious 

Distracted by bene 

Though the bone to the muscle of the mind 

are trying to disband my chains
Yes im plucky and naught

Still m mourn 

Yeap my times are hard 

So I let my body burn

 

Thy beautiful  nature 

Thy beautiful trees 

Thy painful eyes 

My heart beautiful then thee
Main theme is long

Tormented life 

Unspoken words of story 

My only debut song 

Rising towards the glory

FADING INTO CONSCIOUSNESS


It
all started with the rain 

Flat , sceptical bouncing ,dancing all over the world 

I could hear the sound of it 

Like it was raining all over the face of the earth 

I sat quietly , shut my self up closing every doors of my mind , even dreams 

And I heard rain whispering into my ear … It had me hypnotize with it’s demonic melody of truth , lies , sorrows , faith 

It simply created a symphony of silent fear 

Drowning me into the depth of it 

Even asked me to let it touch my skin ..for that it would wipe my pain , melt my darkness to the ground 

And through that it would grow a flower 

A rose for an example 

Beautiful pearls of beauty 

With sharp thrones 

I heard him , like a curious child with curiosity wandering across the distance in my mind trying to figure out the life through the confidence of concentration 

Oh ! I heard him 

Like he was telling the truth 

Which was a seed of lie 

That Apple which didn’t fall to far from the tree 

It was all same , all alike 

Mysterious , overwhelming , disastrous feeling of existence 

Travelling with reality an appearance of tormented soul with a vessel .. Which is even more weaker than itself ..
It started to get more furious like heaven had come to an end 

All hell break loose … People running to feel safe 

Like they had nothing to loose 

Though they never gained much still they worry about the tormented soul inside of them 

They say when you see the face of death your worst fear becomes your best opportunity to survive 

 It asked me again while I was quietly waiting for the end of the world like everybody does 

I didn’t refuse , I simply didn’t care

I watched them like the movies something snapped me into my consciousness 

The pages of dimensions in the sky 

It was my opportunity like I said 

My curiosity 

My visionary sarcasm of reality 

It tried  to convince myself to let me be part of it .

My head hurt like hell it was aching like never before 

It gave me an option to fall back or be the part of it 

I doubted my existence 

Remained inside my vicious thoughts 

I lost control over time between reality and dream 

And it all started with the rain 

Patterning , making a sympathetic poetry of my life 

It all started to get merge within me 

Like I was the only consumer 

Even though my sins wore not pardon yet  

Who am I to refuse , to be blind for the world that never did exist 

Everything started to make sense now 

Even darkness is colored with the deep wave 

It enlightened me to my dignity 

Defined the real portions of life 

The patterns of everything in me 

I summarized it 

The wave hit me 

Rain touched the skin I lived in 

Faded me away like a dust 

I slowly disappeared ….

Faded away ….. Just faded away 

 

Getting rid of you 


In
the process of getting rid of you ..
I was done hiding you in my poetry 

But my dreams accidentally exposed your cruelty 

I was abandoned by my thoughts

Though I was curious towards your sanity 

Well there’s something left inside of me , may be a little humanity 

iam just a silent observer

and Iam done being victim of insanity 

       

Well you have no idea how sophisticated is my tragedy

If you could see behind these eyes , you would call me your majesty

I wonder in my dreams,How to get rid of your face ,Well I must say I hadn’t forgotten you completely 

It must be a mistake , it would be , if I just don’t feel

Well I am just flesh and bones and this wound takes time to heal 
Regardless of my effort 

I couldn’t do it alone, would you help me to cure from this disease 

There’s no light left and iam getting used to this dark 

Let me ask you , that killing You would satisfy me, 

Is it too much to ask?