Graveyard of lonely sins

Irrational operations of my heart 

Ongoing investigation in my mind 

I am already lost in this filthy world 

Gathering time to find my kind 

Foreign pain came to haunt me down

In the midst of the graveyard I was found 

I laid my body so, I could dream of you 

My patience falling apart, I don’t hear your sound 

I tired so hard to escape this twisted feel 

But darkness sure have some amazing skills 

I broke down but,  still I avoid 

I am just not welcome in this empty void 

Yet, I look for your sparkling eyes, 

So, I could hide 

But you left me with no choice 

How I ignored the wisdom advice 

Now, I wish for a bright blue sky

But I was eternally burned how I’m I supposed to fly …
These painted sins over the walls 

Now they are calling me to witness my fall 

Who is that exists with me ? 

I am caving in , these walls are growing tall 

Like a Angel who don’t wear their wings 

And the whispers that makes me swing 

But now I am praying for one more chance 

Just to catch you with another glance how well I learned to starve my sins

Visions blurry yet, my imagination is clean …

I am so deeply lost within… 

How beautiful the dark can be ??

Waited enough to see through it …

But there is nothing wrong with me 

You touched me, I am cursed … 

Not a soul to witness me ..

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unholy encounter

Her eyes silenced my demons in very first sight .

An unholy encounter of darkness and light 

The look in her eyes, those insolence charm hidden behind her innocent face 

Made me realize ,that we both 

Got stupid dreams

Dreams that can be injurious inside 

And my thoughts started to fight 

How I stared at your face 

Hallucinating within, my mind 

She politely asked me to move aside 

Oh ! Those words of wisdom 

She became the guide to my life 

My weary arms were so eager to grab her tight 

But yet I stayed in dark cause I was scared of the light

She smiled looking at me..

Playing with my mind ..

She accidentally committed a crime 

But how she can be blamed ..

My demons already crossed the line 

Then she ignored me just a little 

Why in world this has to happen 

I felt I was born to live brittle 

So brittle that her charm could break me and my heart ❤

And then she touched , oh ! The way she touched 

I quietly felt my sorrows fading away far away from me … As I watched .

She said you don’t deserve this way 

Again she played with my mind 

Though this truth was bitter, it was already a gloomy day 

So thick and dense forest it was 

And the words runs so deep in my veins 

Now it rained it rained so hard 

She unintentionally disbanded my chains 

Then she grabbed me so gently 

Yet it generated numerous amount of pain 

How can I stay calm her love already drove me Insane 

Those line on her face the way they resembles her story 

As I tried to read her eyes, my heard started worry 

She ran her fingers through my hair 

She played with them for a while 

Then she grabbed it so tight 

And exposed me to her light 

I seek for a place to hide, but the time betrayed me …

I exploded into her eyes …

How I cried , how she wiped those tears 

No disguise could be so pure 

Where was she hiding all those years 

I asked my self to defend my soul .

A dangerous mistake was done

It was not there and she had already be gone ….

Inside my grave, darkness so deep 

I was awake but she  offered me eternal sleep

How she lied , how I died ….

Here lies the victim, there goes the criminal committing another crime …

 

​Polluted  poetry(ambiguous farewell)


Stayed awake till the morning 

Just to see her one more time

Faded away in her thoughts

My mind committed suicide 

Sad story behind this silence 

How I Waited to love her eternally 

And How my patience was ignored.

Still can’t believe it’s true 

And it started to spread like venom and flu 

Then my poem got polluted 

Yet , no clue 
Her smell on my mind 

The Hypnotism of her lies 

Been consumed by her charm

My soul locked inside her eyes 

Oh! End come soon and set me free 

Polluted poetry and a tearful plea 

How the heart can hurt 

Your love mixed in my blood

And this silence growing with agony 

Even the moon became my enemy 

And the sky started to cry 

Rain passes by 

Pouring my polluted poetry

Giving an ambiguous goodbye 

My life so unnatural

Leaving me with my memories

That’s how my demons betrayed me

Emptiness surrounds me 

I am the victim of your crime 

Sin after sin you committed 

I was the slave to your smile 

How the smoke gathered up above in the horizon 

Vanishing from earthly pleasures

An artistic view in pain 

My words your game 

My POETRY in chains 

Release me enslave me 

Oh! end come and set me free 

Polluted poetry and tearful plea 

She can’t be Described

Truth in her lies

Pain in her eyes

My conscious faded

There is no place to hide

She came like “June “

Drew poetry from my lips

My heart melted

Unpredicted was the kiss

Roses she loved

With thrones she was covered

My memories burning

A “reality discovered”

In darkness she lived

Those lines on her face

My words unspoken

It’s hard to clean up the mess

Unforgiven and suffered

Her body kept turning in grave

My dreams betrayed me

Hallowed be thy name

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WORST CASE SCENARIO 


I wish I was your worst nightmare ,So you could actually remember to avoid 
I wish you were my fascinating dream ,Which can easily fill the void 

I wish I was your eco in large empty room, So you must hear me without seeking second choice 

I wish you were my words ,In which I can totally rejoice 

I wish I was your unplanned trip ,So you could accidentally come and visit 

I wish you were my favorite spot ,Which I can hardly resist 

I wish I was your hypothetical thought, Which has no proof of its existence 

I wish you were my theory of everything So I could be at your assistance

Her absolute absence

I was never prepared for your absence Whenever you said goodbye , but eventually you came back with your smile ,You went towards the light and I’m buried in this darkness 
I felt blessed then, I feel cursed now

I will remember you for centuries

Now I’m grieving in your memories 

The falsely truth of erroneous presence of silence 

Why should I accept your death

Will I ever see you smiling again?

Why there is the concrete wall between us now 

You can’t reach me and this silence is growing loud 

There is no space for dreams in my head its full of incurable fear  

My Morning begins with misery

My Days come in chaos

The Weekends ends in disaster

And Happiness turns into ruins 

I feel your absence but I feel your presence too , I woke up today saw the empty space beside me , but I still want you to remind me , that you are gone 

Where do I look for you  ? Are you inside of me?

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Something about her

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I never dreamed her mysterious lies 

But she would trick me and hide 

While walking she used to stop and stare 

The look in her eyes I found it rare 

Even I never possessed the power to love her 

Her hypnotic behavior made me give her comfort and care 

I still wonder , I write about her smile and her beautiful scruffy hair 

Nowadays she haunts my dream at night 

No, not the nightmares she plans to give me 

But wants me to be by her side

Well here I plan to miss her tonight 

There’s something I would like to ask her 

“Hey can you read the questions reflecting through my eyes ?”

May be she would answer me instantly 

But I want to hear her words , gently

She didn’t talked much , but it was enough for me to satisfy

I miss her less vulnerable weakness 

So I peel my skin to release the disease 

That keeps growing along with me 

But through the exit wound only the darkness I can see

Well Yesterday’s tragedy becomes regrets of tomorrow 

There’s something left alive in your memories, that I would like to borrow 

Till then let me learn to live with this sorrow

                       -“needed to be loved again “

THE WARRIOR’s revenge 

​”5 years of pain 

15 years of suffering 

20 year old privilege 

And you think you know something about hatred ?? ”
I can‘t let you live your life in awaiting forgiveness 

Cause my vengeance is so loud 

Even if you try to confess the sins that shines through your skin 

I will still watch you fall to the ground 

I will hear the words that comes out of your throat 

And I will pretend that I feel you somehow 

And laugh with the agony inside of my heart 

slow and barbaric death of yours would satisfy me 

Forgive you ?? Nah it would only purify me

Even if you are forgiven by lord 

Your death would remind him of the mistake that he did before 

And never let his pride pushed through his faith again 
The things you did to me left the scar on my soul 

The cursed disease that you spread inside me 

Became my cure 

And iam now dancing in darkness 

Raising a tost to your defeat 

Won’t you forgive me 

Consider it done ,  I want to hear it from you 

See through my eyes the life of BETRAYAL

Don’t  you pity me ? 
Now I had raised the sails…

Straight to horizon to the garden of dream

And I can still hear you scream 

Save your strength , the struggle is worthless 

When the vengeance is too loud 

The heartbeats fades away slowly 

So let go of your pride 

Turn the page it’s the end of the story ……

The hell awaits 

Devoted death of thy beauties

Devoted death of thy beauties 


Imagine yourself at the dreamland of demand

Where uh are the creator and got all hands 

False night & true morning 

Dark sunrise, bright foolin’

The sun rises in the sky
And clouds floats so slowly

Love is part of a bible (I heard)

And a unexplainable theory
Thy beautiful faces lying naked in ground

Surround by rumour

Oh! No thats a crowd 

In a longway run very much to get bound
An amorous behavoiur of girls

Presentin amok slightly

The running water of river 

Walkin so quitly 
The nature somtime rumble upon my dream

Even these beauties are dead  still my imagination is clean 

I plight to be forever

But my lord isn’t happy 

Though I got plenty of time 

Still my weight to the world is heavy 
The beautiful angels of dene

Are likely to be deadpan

Ofcourse this babel is callouse 

My dreams never understand 
My heart is capacious 

Distracted by bene 

Though the bone to the muscle of the mind 

are trying to disband my chains
Yes im plucky and naught

Still m mourn 

Yeap my times are hard 

So I let my body burn

 

Thy beautiful  nature 

Thy beautiful trees 

Thy painful eyes 

My heart beautiful then thee
Main theme is long

Tormented life 

Unspoken words of story 

My only debut song 

Rising towards the glory

Witness me 

In the nights of September 

When I walked through my corridor 

All I can see is the lies 

Crawling through the floor 

I have so much pain in my chest 

All regrets and mistakes 

It’s burning me 

And I am sure 
Truth to be told 

I’ll be here no more 

Got nothing left , but emptiness 

Don’t even have soul , cause I already sold it before 
In the cold dark night , 

When darkness haunts my thoughts 

I seek for a place to hide 

With all the energy I’ve  got 

I have something to show you 

But don’t think I can

Hope you would forgive me 

And understand
When I hear cries at the night and demons in their lies 

Summon me to their feast 

Feed me with my greed 

I wander in my head 

Is there someone to witness me ?

 

Getting rid of you 


In
the process of getting rid of you ..
I was done hiding you in my poetry 

But my dreams accidentally exposed your cruelty 

I was abandoned by my thoughts

Though I was curious towards your sanity 

Well there’s something left inside of me , may be a little humanity 

iam just a silent observer

and Iam done being victim of insanity 

       

Well you have no idea how sophisticated is my tragedy

If you could see behind these eyes , you would call me your majesty

I wonder in my dreams,How to get rid of your face ,Well I must say I hadn’t forgotten you completely 

It must be a mistake , it would be , if I just don’t feel

Well I am just flesh and bones and this wound takes time to heal 
Regardless of my effort 

I couldn’t do it alone, would you help me to cure from this disease 

There’s no light left and iam getting used to this dark 

Let me ask you , that killing You would satisfy me, 

Is it too much to ask?